take a breathe, tell yourself you are ok, bear....

i always tell myself, i would not put unhappy stuff, as much as possible, on this blogspot space... but this time round, i really buay tahan already arh...

so first thing of all, my apologies to all those pals i have sort of not given "attention" to this week... really had a bad week..

so bad that....dunno y, was feeling so so down last night...


haiz.

i think one of the main thing could be from my office side..
You may ask, "eh isnt u going to ORD in 2 mth? y would it still bothers you?"

coz, last nov i was put into a place where it's seriously short handed. Then now come to time where the major project is happening... so the rest of them would be engaged with it outside, and i would be alone in office, handling all the other stuff there....

and so because of this, my leave all have to be re-arranged... oh well, "luckily" i dont have much left (coz the system here makes you clear leave every year, not like the army-style of "clear-all-2year's-at-one-go". )

that's not all. Then came some last minutes shit from my supervisor (which i guess he doesnt know how to clear it too) ...and it became my shit (which i dont know how to clear even more) which i have to settle it by the dateline given from top... arggh...

Then there came stand by duties... wah, couple of days before gotten one again. This time it was because of some people fault that caused us to be involved....so went all way down to tuas at night of valentine's day. cool.

Oh yes, isnt i suppose to have a replacement NS boy too? Yes he came, but i dunno in what sense the top gave us this poor chap that doesnt know english well and not good in computer.... so, he's not taking over my job and went to do field work in another section.......
so in the time when my peers are already teaching his junior happily and working at 50%, i'm still working at 100%, alone.


And with all these stuff i still have something that is struck in my brain.....


TAke a deep breath......left two months only, after that your mind will be cleared, and you can think anything le....


erm, apologies to all the people around me again huh.


luckily there's weekends and off days. I can stop thinking about work if i didnt work on that day.

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i'm learning. i'm still learning.


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