are you tired?

IN the canteen at my base, there's this young man (but older than me) who handled the Zhu3 Chao3 stall... He is a malaysian (from Sarawak) and would always change from his shirt and shorts into a formal attire after his work..seems to be aheading somewhere else for more stuff/work. Still, guess everyone would see him as just another malaysian worker?

But today, while i was walking to the MRT station, i ran into him (he was in the same direction) and we pick up a chat (quite a friendly guy). As i learnt that he's still proceeding to boon lay for some more matters everyday (despite that he had worked for hte entire day) , i asked him:

"arent you is tired"?

"tired? with a aim you will never get tired."

This sentence left me with a deep impression immediately.

Then he added
"many people live a day and plan a day, but never gets far. But if you plan far and aim for it, you will get very far in your life"

he is indeed very motivated and driven.

And as we chatted on, i realised that he is not just a simple worker. He is full of knowledge and ideas. He had attended talks and had learnt from people regarding their experiences in business... And he's very observant too, certainly. Seems like the type who would venture into business eventually...

His level of sense could even be better than some of the people i know in my office.

Really doesnt sound like what would have come out from the mouth of the person who works in our canteen, to my surprise.

Then he shared with me that at this talk by a Taiwanese businessman, he said
"A person might not suceed with talents, but he will if he believes in his dreams" (with will power too)

So true..

So right when i'm at the time of still deciding on my future...

Anyway, his Zhu3 Chao3 wasnt tasty.. full of MSG always.. but i guess it's ok, 'cos i doubt cooking in the canteen would be his main thing... he is certainly capable of much more...

Hmm...

Wonder how would he be, say 5 years later? Surely would have gotten much more further than now.

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all in a day's work

recently me and my colleagues seems to be getting tired of the job.

Same thing over and over again everyday. The new management made life worse.

I had been here for 1 year and 3 months...but that's nothing much compared to my colleague's 5 years spent.

Thankfully, we are still able to find some fun from every little thing.. hee..

Just like today, 2 piece of engine parts placed in the workshop can be arranged to look like esplanade



and some inspiration from my colleague turns him into a "salted-egg-superman"



lame hor?

There's more in office..

Look at the example on me:



It all started previously when they referred me as one of the radar tower, 'cos, as they said, i'm pretty tall and always looks over the parition when called... just like the camera on the tower...haa...

By the way, others are not spared too..



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haha....

"easy" job...

(written on tuesday, 20th sep, in office... only til today then i have the chance to upload this at home ^-^")

My job for today... to send items for my Department Cross country run and to do shuttle bus service, fetching staff from City Hall mrt.

It's held at the Marina promenade Park (behind Ritz Calton, under the ECP to the part where you have the "entrance" where the duck tour makes her splash. So in order to drive into the park to place the logistic, we have to go in via the ducktour "entrance".

Sounds simple isnt it? Indeed it is. Provided if i'm lucky....

But i'm not. as i was driving the van along the ducktour track to move out, suddenly there's a van (no seen just now) parked in the centre. Obviously the driver was finding a place to rest... Nevermind, i just squeeze past you lo. But that's not the end. At the end of the road there's another car parked there (new one, again) Now it's too narrow to squeeze through it... so i have to make a detour on the grass patch...

and... the van got stuck in the soil. Damn it.

My colleague hop off to check on it. The right rear wheels was in the soft soil.. No matter how i rev, it's still spinning on the spot..

The best thing is, on this sight, instead of helping, that van driver and that stupid car driver drove off asap.... &*#$%#@$#

So we have no choice but to use whatever we could find... stone, pranks, tree branch, etc...placed under the wheel, dig and dig the soil, forward, reverse, it still doesnt move...

Called up my colleague (the in charge for the event, who's already stressed up enough) and he would be on the way down, on foot....

so 20 over minutes passed, until some of the other people from my department happened to pass by.. they were on their way to the event. With them helping to push...we are finnally released.. phew... was still afraid that i might have to see the head of transport if anything happens to the van... luckily still in a piece with no damage ^-^

But in the end, coz of the time spent, i didnt get to do the 2 rounds of shuttle service... -_-"... Luckily there's 2 other vans doing it..

stiil, haiz, feel damn bad after the event... seems to have caused more trouble.. haa...

charging done, sentosa!

trust me, for early last week, i was nearly on the edge of collasping already.

no energy (mentally) no energy (physically) no energy (in work) no energy (for everything)

Other than the problem at my family side, i guess it was also due to my workplace getting shitter and shitter. (this's another story.)

Luckily, my pre-planned 3 days leave came right nicely on time... and yeah... on leave for 14 - 16th.

More time to sleep, to recharge and refresh, and to go out with shufang ;) *happy*
(she having holidays too)

Dying for a friends gathering too... So when Dom sms us for a trip to sentosa on the coming saturday, i "signed up" for it immediately.

Initially i intended to go down at 830am for breakfast with dom and gang.., but as a sudden situation arises at my grandma's on friday night (in which we stayed til very late) i went down at the later timing, with the rest of the people..

The first activity for us started with a game of captain ball... With all the energetic guys and girls, it was so....fast paced.. hhaha...towards the end of the game i was really losing breathe... but it was fun... havent had such a "workout" for ages.

Half time for the game and some rest...with some photo taking here n there... ^-^



After it, we treked down the beach, where most of us had a kayaking session...except for me, kent and Lynette (jinie's friend). And yup, i was made the offical photographer, from the shore.. haha... except for the time whereby i felt tired (and sun-burnt) and went back to the comfortable mat where kent n lyn r seated...only to be shouted back...to continue with the photo shooting.. hahah...



wah, jinie n kenneth very pro huh, but iz and yan jun seems to have problems with the direction at first.. they seems to get further and further at the start... haha.. and as the 2 kayak take turns to come nearer to me for photo taking, each of them nearly went in to this same 2 person (who were in the sea), at the same spot... guess they certainly werent too happy... haha...

And derrick... (who went in sea later due to the lack of single seat kayak) was having difficulty to get into the kayak and to move out to sea...despite help from me, he was still been repeatly washed up shore.. hahah... until jinie and kenneth came down and helped him... haha... was really a fun time.

(better dun comment anymore, coz i didnt even go into the sea... haha... if it's me, certainly i'll have created the joke of the day...)

After the fun time on sea... we went on to take the chairlift ride uphill. This is really new i guess? didnt even know its existance.. haha... As the name suggest its something like a bench that carries you up the hill..like those you see at those snow ski mountains.. so other than the rod that holds you, there's nothing else...with your legs dangling in the air... hehe...



sound scary right? First impression was indeed abit. But as we started to move uphill, it was all ok for me....perhaps because of those towers that i had climbed at work? And certainly derrick have no problems too coz he (lucky guy) had already taken such rides during his ski at Korea.. It was pretty peaceful, except when kent shouted my name from behind several times...haha...and i shouted back his too. Anyway it was pretty fun to shout on the hills... stress releasing??

The view was really great... wah.. saw the new construction for the train station, the PSA/CBD view, and the great down hill tracks which you could travel down on a Luge (like a motor-less go-kart to me) after the chairlift ride, if we pay $2 more just now (3 for $15, while one uphill chairlift is $3/pax). Wah...see-ing the hairpin turns really reminded me of initial D...;) .. wanna try that next time!!



With this, we ended our day in sentosa. A shuttle bus ride and train took us to orchard, where we had dinner at mache ;) Ok guess i might sound like a mountain turtle now, but the food is really nice! and the price wasnt too ex too somemore... Had a great time there, with all the jokes and laughter..

Not forgetting, kent got his girl to come down to join us all for dinner too... hey kent, finally get to see your girl... congraluation for getting such a nice girl!! she's sort of similiar to you...from my impression? cheers!

After dinner, we had some walks around in heerens and cine, and day ended with everyone heading back home... guess everyone was already very tired by then! Me too, was already in quite a blur mind le.. haha

Frankly, it was really such a long time since i had been out in a big group for outing for an entire day.. It does bring me back memories of the past... Or could i just felt it so strong now coz i was in the stage of my life? Or i just...think too much le...

No matter what, i still enjoyed the day. Alot.

Thanks to everyone..

sigh.

hi guys.

It's been more than a week since i had update this blog. Or rather, since i had laid my hands on my comp... I had one of the most tiring and worst week in fact... My maternal grandmother suffered from a stroke and me and my family went down to hospital every night. And we had to face one of the worst relatives we had in the world... here's why..

(hope u dont mind this long post...allow me to vent out all the frustrations...)

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It all started on last Monday (5th sep), when i received a call from my sister that my grandma had a stroke, and was on the way to TTSH.. After work i rushed down, and she's already awaiting treatment at A & E. No, it didnt happen suddenly. As a matter of fact, it happened the day before (sunday). When those uncles were been called down, they "thought" she was simply choked with phlegm and didnt "bothered" to send her to the hospital...Why? Money. Decision? Wait and see how first. We didnt even know about it at that night then...it was only when my father and sist came on monday afternoon that they realise it wasnt as simple....

Fine. And when she's sent to the hospital? Only one of my uncle (4th uncle), my big aunt (wife of the 1st uncle), one of my cousin and my family were there. The 4 other uncles was un-seen. My 3rd uncle (who was my grandma favourite son, and the always most bossy but never took any responsibility) only said "call me when there's any need" and stayed at home. Ya right, when we called you later in the night your stupid phone was already off.

For nuts , she's their own mother!! Doesnt him (or them) be even more worried?? Taking their money seems more painful than their mother's condition. F**K.

Now's about my that big aunt. My grandma had been living with her first son family, hence you can say it was under my big aunt care...She had hired a maid to take care of her, but we all know she was never good to my grandma, other than when the rest of the relatives were present... True enough, when the A&E doctor came out, she was trying her best to claim credits and act fillal... wah lao, if she's really that good, my grandma wouldnt be in such a state.

From the doctor, it was confirmed that she suffered from a stroke in her right brain, hence the left part of her body is paralysed. Also, now she have difficulty in shallowing and speaking.. So she had to be hospitalised for further treatment.

As we waited in the ward for the doctor (doing his night time rounds) to come, the nurse does her checks and settles all the arrangements for contacts... comes the part when she ask for a volunteer to be the learner person (to understand the condition), no ones volunteers. Yes, even that aunt (who's been living with her and taking credits) didnt step forward, until she's been pushed to do so... Or else, my sister would already had volunteered, when things shouldnt be in this way (we are already considered outside of the family, cos it's the maternal side.)

And when the doctor finally came, he did his checks... and his atitude and tone was really bad...sounds more than a cop questioning criminals as he asked us questions...ok, guess he look young and is really stressed out. Once again, that aunt was just there saying "i took care of her this and that".... and when he asked why my grandma wasnt been observed more carefully, she pushed all to the poor maid, who just kept quiet.

Please la, cut the act... we knew since day one. By this time my cousin was already having a real black face, and stood aside quietly... She was real concerned with our grandma, much more than those sons. Further more, she knew all the stuff too, when to assert her rights as a client for things to be done (ie: call for neurologist to assess my grandma), with all the right tone to get things done. Perhaps it's her career, and also from all her experiences...her own mother (my eldest aunt) had passed away with cancer; and she had been running in and out of hospitals due to her mother and her in-laws.. I really respect her.

And my sister too... Not only her knowledge from her dip course in physiotherapy was put into practise, her unlimited care and gentle-ness was much better than any nurse there... Throughout the entire night she just hold on to my grandma palm and rubbing it to show that we are all there... kept telling her it's ok and communicating with her.

The most heart broken should be my mum... Actually, she had been blaming herself for moving out 2 years ago... When i was still at Hougang, our unit was just next door to my grandma and my 1st uncle's unit. Back then, whatever happens it would be us to settle....they just never bother much and we was taken for granted...further more, during then my grandma didnt appreciate my mum...she only "see" her favourite son...eventually my mum couldnt take it anymore (many stuff happened) and so we shifted out, leave it all for "those-who-lived-nearby" to handle. Who knows, after we left that aunt changed her face...

Still, what filled her now was more anger than grief.

By the time everything was settled, it was already pass midnight...Before we left, we asked my grandma who she wants to see.. apon the mention of her favourite son, she shook her head hard. Real hard. Guess she was finally disappointed with him. My cousin said something very true... "It's ok, that guy will grow old one day too." Very true. We will just stand aside by then and watch his fate. Or maybe i would already had forgotten about his presence.

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Up to wed, she was in state of dizziness still, drifting in and out of sleeps for the entire day... It was until thursday that she gotten better, and had a clearer mind, complaining about her hunger and could still check that we are fine when we visited her...

Certainly, the maid was very much happy too... she had been attached to her for slightly more than a year now, and she had already take it as if she is her own grandmother... She was soo worried that she actually cried when my grandma "woke up" from her long "sleep" that day... it was such a heartwarming moment...

There was this moment that i couldnt take it too... it was thursday, when it was the first time that she suddenly called for me... as i move over and held her palm, she cried suddenly, and it took us all by surprise... Why, we kept asking but she just didnt say (or we didnt catch it).. trust me, i nearly cried too.... My father guessed that she cried 'cos she was sad why all those sons of my uncles didnt come, but instead it was all those from the female side who came almost daily... And i believed it. She always been so traditional, and the "wai sun"s (external) will never be better than those "ne sun"s (internal). Perhaps this event had really changed her thinking.


Initially, it was already expected that she would be discharged on sat. But friday she was down with fever due to infection, and she went back to the state of dizziness... The discharge date was delayed, until monday (12th sep). The fever was gone on the day of discharge, but she was still not quite "awake" yet...until now. haIx. With my mum having off from work tomorrow, we would be going down to visit her at hougang, and i hope to see her be better.

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This, indeed, had changed alot of stuff. Physically, not only she could not move her left side limps, she cant speak properly now and had lost the ability to eat... "Food", in form of "liquid milk", had to be inserted by the means of a tube, directly into her throat. On the other hand, she had seen all the true colours of the people around... which son doesnt care, which is a fake, which son have the heart but not the money and energy to support it... (you xin wu li) , and who are those that really cares.

And my dear friends.. please cherish those kins you have around you... frankly, only now then i kind of regretted not spending more time with my grandma when i was younger, at my old hougang house...when she still could do everything...

And take care of your parents... It really very bad for anyone to suffer such a pain at such a age.

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