take a breathe, tell yourself you are ok, bear....

i always tell myself, i would not put unhappy stuff, as much as possible, on this blogspot space... but this time round, i really buay tahan already arh...

so first thing of all, my apologies to all those pals i have sort of not given "attention" to this week... really had a bad week..

so bad that....dunno y, was feeling so so down last night...


haiz.

i think one of the main thing could be from my office side..
You may ask, "eh isnt u going to ORD in 2 mth? y would it still bothers you?"

coz, last nov i was put into a place where it's seriously short handed. Then now come to time where the major project is happening... so the rest of them would be engaged with it outside, and i would be alone in office, handling all the other stuff there....

and so because of this, my leave all have to be re-arranged... oh well, "luckily" i dont have much left (coz the system here makes you clear leave every year, not like the army-style of "clear-all-2year's-at-one-go". )

that's not all. Then came some last minutes shit from my supervisor (which i guess he doesnt know how to clear it too) ...and it became my shit (which i dont know how to clear even more) which i have to settle it by the dateline given from top... arggh...

Then there came stand by duties... wah, couple of days before gotten one again. This time it was because of some people fault that caused us to be involved....so went all way down to tuas at night of valentine's day. cool.

Oh yes, isnt i suppose to have a replacement NS boy too? Yes he came, but i dunno in what sense the top gave us this poor chap that doesnt know english well and not good in computer.... so, he's not taking over my job and went to do field work in another section.......
so in the time when my peers are already teaching his junior happily and working at 50%, i'm still working at 100%, alone.


And with all these stuff i still have something that is struck in my brain.....


TAke a deep breath......left two months only, after that your mind will be cleared, and you can think anything le....


erm, apologies to all the people around me again huh.


luckily there's weekends and off days. I can stop thinking about work if i didnt work on that day.

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i'm learning. i'm still learning.


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gain and lose?

One day i was talking to yasmeen, and she was telling me about this...:

"When you gain something, you lose something else"

She finds it quite true, and to think of it, we could really find quite some examples to support this statement.

Just like a couple i know. The guy had gotten a driving licence, and since they gained the convenience of travelling. But as the girl tends to lose her way during navigation and the guy was quite stressed while driving, they tend to argued and piss each other off. Thus they lost some happiness too.

Or, one might gained career, but lost time for family...


But what happens when you believe in this? Tendency is that once something really good comes to you, you would start to be afraid that you might lose something in return... So you might not really be happy...


Hence, we have to know, this is not the case all the time. First, what is it that we would lose? It might not be what we forsee. Or rather, what we lose might be much smaller than what we gained. Or even, we might not lose anything at all. We might gain more in the long run.


Give you a scenerio. Assuming that you are going overseas to study in your dream course but, base on that logic on top, you afraid you might lose your bf/gf. Well, that logic still applies, but it could be just that you lost some money for the payment. Instead, you and your the other half might get even closer (cos you start to cherish each other more) And once you are back, the valuable education you had lets you earn much more than what you and/or your family had spent.

Not forgetting effort comes into place too.... You must of cos, at least make that effort to keep in contact with your other half or family when you are far away too, in order for all to cherish each other more too.. If you had taken them for granted, then certainly you might lose the bond...


In short, whatever things happens, be it be good or bad, just dont worry soo much. Do what you have to do, enjoy what you can, and let nature take it's course. All will be fine eventually...

...coz I believe everything happens for a cause. No matter what happens, all will come to a good end.

You too?
^-^

one bear down

The mightly polar bear is sick.

Right after CNY visits on tues, i'm already feeling abit funny on wed, with all the runny nose...

and come to thurs, wah, cant stand it...getting worse.

so after lunch time, left office and went to see a doc.

Went Sengkang Polyclinic... wah... the queue is horrible... Spent 2, 3 hours there for a 10 mins treatment...

Finally home. And slept for the entire night.

til today, slept and slept and slept...

til just now 4+ pm.

Luckily today on leave wor....


Think should call myself polar-pig. ;P


p/s: Apologies to Derrick and May again huh. Initially had planned to meet you two for dinner on thursday...Will re do another one next week yup? paisei!